Where the Verizons are wonky, but I hesitate to use the dealers internets.
I'm trying to get my ducks in a row in case my surgery gets moved into next week. I don't really want this, but it's not up to me. Getting the parathyroid surgery out of the way is a bigger priority because it turns out that I do have a form of Non Hodgkins Lymphoma and although it is a slow growing type, getting my kidneys ready to handle what is next, is the thing.
As far as what is next goes, I'm unsure. Yesterday, we discussed targeted radiation to try to shrink up the problems in my lungs. Because the lymphoma may have been caused by my having too much radiation in the past 9 1/2 years, I can't see why that should even be on the table. But I'm disappointed and confused.
I'm also relieved that chemo is not being pushed, or aggressive surgery. The best future plan could be a bone marrow transplant, but we were told that I need to get my blood calcium regulated before that could be an option.
And the most important thing is that the disease is slow growing.
So I'm not panicking, I'm just getting things done. An oil change now, followed by groceries and an attempt to finish the gift shopping. Later, I'm going to double check all the automatic bill paying and teach Griffin how to launder his work stuff. At some point, I'll do my knee exercises* and ride another 10 miles on the stationary bike**.
While I'm on the bike, I'll work on the only Christmas knitting I have planned. It's a scarf for Joshua, in linen stitch, using three colors of double stranded cashmere lace weight:
It takes forever, or 2 1/2 miles on the bike to work one row, but I like the way it's turning out and I like the mindlessness of Linen Stitch.
Please do not worry about me/us in light of this medical turn. It could be worse and we have gotten pretty good at dealing with crappy news. I did start seeing a therapist yesterday, which was a big move for me, but I have needed to step back and get some perspective about my health and other issues. It went well and it will be easy to continue over the next few months as things work out.
Anyway, my car should be ready soon, I hope so - there is an elderly couple who are snoring loudly across the room and this place reeks of burnt popcorn!
* I was discharged from PT on Monday because my knees are much better and they don't want to risk my hurting myself or getting sick on their watch. I can continue the exercises at home.
** I'm sort of overdoing it with the bike, but it's the only time I can concentrate on listening to an audiobook and I'm in hour 29 out of 32 on The Goldfinch. I'm eating more to compensate because my weight is down below 140 again and that needs to come up a few pounds.